I wanna have meaningless sex with a girl, several times and after weeks call it off, even though I’ve not started it I tell her that I want it to be stopped, and she feels insulted by me calling it off, and after several mounts I get lonely and get depressed and call her at midnight, preferebly drunk and crying, and she dumps me because she knows what a emotionless Gaav I am, and I get more depressed and get drunk more crawl underneath a table or desk or whatever I find, and cry hard and damn myself and swear the destiny and I call her phone until she say something really bad to me, and then again I feel dumped and try hard to find another girl to sleep with.
P.S. I’ve missed old me and both of them either old or new me are disgusting me.